|Cooking up a healhty recipe while working...how|
ironic that I work for a nutrition program! Horrible photo!
Since I last wrote, which was in...September...oh my gosh, it's been since September, I have been on a life roller coaster. I was having trouble with anxiety so I sought professional help and went on some anxiety medication. I loved it. Nothing bothered me the entire 7 months i was on them, I never cried. Not even once. In retrospect that is super disturbing. Even at that, I loved the medication. I was happy. The weight of the world did not bother me. I didn't cry at commercials. I didn't find myself short of breath. I liked my husband (yes I said liked) and I felt in control of my emotions. I loved it. But all good things must come to an end and in that end, which took 4 weeks of gradual weaning, I have gone back to food for comfort. And we all know that that is NOT good. I have noticed that I eat or think about eating even when I'm completely stuffed. This too is so disturbing to me. In the 4 weeks it took me to wean off my medication and the 4 weeks since that last pill popped (8weeks total) I have gained 16 pounds. I
|Blahhh gross side shot!|